Anyone else struggle when you try so hard to do things an it seems like everything you are trying never goes to plan.
For months, I have been trying so hard to get connected, to start changing my daily life routine. I have tried to meet new people by meeting up for coffee or planned to have lunch with someone, even offering my time helping out at certain things but it’s like the people always forget about me (I have even tried to text them a reminder saying looking forward to tomorrow) it doesn’t matter what I’ve tried, they just never get back to me. I am told I will be emailed the information but it never happens even when I remind them I just seem to get passed on or told something new.
What is wrong with me!!
How are we supposed to get connected if the people don’t want to connect?? I have never been in this situation before but it seems these past few years it’s become my norm and I DISLIKE it A LOT.
I’ve learned I don’t ever want to be known for false promises an not follow through. The saying is so true that actions speak louder than words and I can honesty say that I think I’m ready to take it as my motto. Not to get my hopes up or believe people so quickly. Where if they surprise me and follow through great! If they don’t, it won’t matter because I didn’t get my hopes up.
How am I supposed to get connected and not be isolated all the time. It’s awful when you have the thought ‘if anything happened to me, who would I call?’ Honest answer. I literally have no one An that’s really hard to admit.
I had such a different vision of what my life was going to be like, but it seems that’s the loneliness has followed me. Trying to get connected to churches in my area, I get the big ‘Hello, Welcome’ but that’s as far as it goes. When I go to things an try to start conversations they give one word answers then walk off an talk to the people they do know. I try to get involved in things but never hear word back. I sit by myself. I even stay at the end of church and have tea believing someone will see me and want to talk to me. It’s so disheartening it’s getting to the stage where I’m done.
Church should feel like home. It doesn’t need to be this hard. I’m done with the big hellos and happy welcome and then once your in the doors your a nobody.
Sorry this is abit down but I am trying so hard, an continue to get knocked back time and time again. What am I doing wrong!